Sorry to sound retarded, but I've been trying to clear my head lately and as sad as it sounds, when "Interstate Love Song" came on, it actually helped.

Sigh. . .

I feel so foggy lately. I'm not sure what's going on exactly, but I know it's difficult.

I'm worried that this is my mid-life crisis. That's depressing for 2 reasons:

1. My life is already halfway over. (Maybe it's a 1/3 life crisis)
2. What's going to happen during my actual MLC?

Last night at Autumn's I seriously could not breathe. I gasped a couple times and my chest got tight. When I start thinking about forever, the next 5-10 years, and being with one person I freak out.

All I want to do is run (and those who know me know I would much rather sleep than run) and keep running until I reach a place where I don't know anyone and no one can touch me and I don't have to think about anything relevent or make life defining decisions at the age of 23.

This blows.